I Have You

I have always been a dreamer
Followed visions of my own
I was born to belong
To the lines of a song
And make them my home

I believe in happy endings
Though I've only known a few
For as rare as they are
Like a bright falling star
I found one in you

Sometimes
All the world can seem so friendless
And the road ahead so endless
And the dream so far away

Sometimes
When I'm almost to surrender
Then I stop and I remember
I have you to save my day

Often my imagination
Has me reaching out too far
When I fell you were there
With your hand in the air
You knew from the start

Sometimes
After all you've done to save me
Through the love you freely gave me
Every step along the way
Sometimes
People ask what keeps me goin'
And in truth, it comes from knowin'
I have you to save my day

Sometimes
Feeling helpless when I held you
Wishing words would come to tell you
I have you to save my day

Winning the Lotto

I was so excited to start the day but it's only 5 o'clock in the morning so I decided to just start this post. Two hours from now I expect to have breakfast outside and then go to a Lotto booth. The jackpot prize has reached the highest in the history of Lotto in the Philippines. It is now more than 400 million pesos.

The long lines to the Lotto booth would tell that anybody wants to win this lottery. I am somewhat different though. I really would like to win but I'm a little scared. I practice the principles of TCM, so I try to avoid emotions that will affect my health. But how can someone avoid being overjoyed when he or she wins the Lotto? Overjoy can cause heart attack and that's what I'm scared of. But fear also affects the kidney, LOL!

Oh well, I've stopped dreaming because of too many tasks and schedules I had to fulfill and dreaming of winning this lottery is a break from a busy reality. Perhaps, some people who'd like to win have no time to dream small or they simply have to dream big this time. In my case I'd like to go to the U.S. to bring my special needs child, Lyca, to a cerebral palsy center where there is complete facilities for therapy. My Mom has a pool in her home in Las Vegas, it can also be part of Lyca's therapy, especially now that Lyca has grown big. The water would really be a big help for us to manage her weight and height.

Whoever will win surely deserves the prize for whatever purpose that only God knows. If you are that person, just don't forget to take it easy and just relax so you won't have a heart attack.

Revising a dream

In my original Dreams List, the 12th dream on the list was to win in the international category of the speech contest of Toastmasters Club and unfortunately not yet fulfilled. Since I am no longer an active member of that club, I don't think I can ever fulfill that dream because even if I become active again, the younger generations are getting better and better and always deserve to win in speech contests.

And so, I'm revising that dream, though this revised version is also very hard to achieve: to be an international speaker of Tiens, which requires that I should first be an 8-star distributor to qualify, and that is the harder part. My original objective for speaking to an international audience was to be able to spread God's message, but that was when the web was not yet widely used. It was the main reason why I became a blogger and by being one, I've started to spread my own true story about God's message. Perhaps it still makes a difference if they hear my story from my own voice. If they did not believe my written story, I'm sure they will feel the sincerity from my voice and will believe this time.

If talking to an international audience is not achievable, then whatever God will plan next, I wish I could guess or will be able to discern, so I could welcome it wholeheartedly.

What lies in the future

This is a Sponsored Post written by me on behalf of NMEDA. All opinions are 100% mine.

I've always wondered about Lyca's future. Only this week, I've seen a young man with cerebral palsy walking on the sidewalk. Although he looked pitiful because of his abnormal gait, at least he could walk, and I wished Lyca could do that too, someday. But looking at the situation in another perspective, he could be prone to road accidents. He could get to a place faster with the help of a motorized wheelchair maybe.

And then today, I've read more about NMEDA or National Mobility Equipment Dealers Association, the organization that can help families get the right equipment for a disabled family member. This organization doesn't sell equipments, it is affiliated with dealers or NMEDA members who sell handicap vans and vehicle modifications for disabled people. Isn't that awesome? An organization is focused on looking after the vehicle or equipment needs of the disabled.

NMEDA also has Quality Assurance Program (QAP) dealers. The Quality Assurance Program (QAP) is the only nationally recognized accreditation program for the Adaptive Mobility Equipment Industry. It is based on the principle that in order to satisfy customers consistently, companies must have a systematic and documented approach to quality.

I can now imagine what Lyca's future can be like. Whether she would walk on her own or not, it won't really matter. NMEDA can help us choose the dealer with the right equipment for her. It is not easy to take care of a special needs child because it could be depressing at times. We, the people taking care of Lyca would like to try our best to make her less dependent someday, but there were times it seemed hopeless. Just recently though, I've seen more facilities in the U.S. that will help Lyca improve. I guess we need to push through with that plan to go there. And I'm just glad that there's an organization that can educate us to buy Lyca's future equipments from a qualified dealer.

Your Dream Scrubs

Most of my friends in the medical industry are nurses and I’m sure they will enjoy this post. I remember when the scrub uniform started to replace the white nursing uniforms, we in the medical department were all excited to look for websites offering scrubs.

The good news is the scrubs uniforms were made more fashionable by Blue Sky Scrubs. They come with colorful scrub hats and there are several designs to choose from. Fashionable surgery scrub hats are also available and that will surely transform the stressful environment in the operating room into a delightful view. Pocket placements, inseam lengths will also no longer pose problems we’ve encountered in the past because Blue Sky Scrubs also offers Custom Scrubs from the many designs to choose from to create the perfect scrub uniform.

Of course lab coats are also available in this site for my friends in the laboratory.

To my friends in the medical industry, just bookmark this post, click on the appropriate links and you’ll surely find what you need.

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My dream product at the perfect time

Two years ago, I wrote about my dream product. It was called Tiens Dream Bio-energy Mattress. That was in Sept. 2008, and I knew I will achieve that dream because I already had a buyer for the townhouse unit I was selling, and I was also expecting to be employed again. However, the processing of the housing loan of the buyer stalled and I didn't get a job, so the down payment of the buyer lasted for four months only. As a result, we had to borrow for our daily expenses until we got paid in full for the balance of the townhouse, after another two months. We had to pay debts so I had to forget about my dream product.

After just a few months, Tiens announced that a new model of my dream product will be introduced soon. The same old features will be retained, plus new features based on the latest technology. The product is now called Tiens Photon Bio-energy Mattress. I was employed again by that time, and had seriously looked for a buyer of the lot we had wanted to sell even before we sold the townhouse unit. The events went fast, I've already set aside the money I will need for the mattress from the sale of the lot, but I've also decided to resign from my job. I did not change my mind about buying the product, because in my mind, it will be easier for me to market the product and earn, if I own one.

I've realized that this is the perfect time for me to get this dream product. What if I got the old model? It doesn't have the photons that the new model has. Controlling the features with the new model is a lot easier because there are fixed exposure times for the VLF (Very Low Frequency) alternating magnetic wave, which is 20 minutes after every one and a half hour, and the photon, which is one hour after every four hours.

The benefits of the photon, which has the same wavelength used by the astronauts of NASA (660 nanometer), are just amazing! Healing happens in the cellular level, which means that any disease caused by injured cells can be healed! When an injured cell is exposed to photon, it repairs itself and once it is repaired, it is done and will no longer receive further treatment from the photon. That means there is no overdose because it is the cell that controls the treatment, not the person. The light from the photon at the 660 nanometer wavelength has no affinity for cancer cells so that the killer cells that was made healthy by the photon can defeat the cancer cells. Isn't that awesome?

I love war stories with happy endings and I'm glad that there is now a product that can assure us of a happy ending, though it is not a weapon but just a friend of mankind, invented by the Russians to save mankind in outer space, perhaps not realizing at first, that it will be more needed to save mankind on earth.

Goodbye, my friend

Early this month, I was saddened by the news that a friend who became close to me died. For the last four years, I've wanted to see him, but perhaps I did not try enough and that was what made me have some guilt feelings, until I wrote this.

Joel wanted to excel in everything that he does. His dream was to be somebody that people will look up to someday. When we became close, he was taking up masters. We were partners in a ballroom dance club we attended after office, just outside the area where my office was. He would usually wait in my office, would usually rehearse his speech for his masters class, but whenever he did that, he would give the impression that he is a good speaker talking in front of an audience, much like a younger Boy Abunda of the Philippines. I knew about his weaknesses, but his strengths could easily cover them up. He was a person with big dreams, but sometimes, he would need people to boost his morale, and I was one of those people.

During the last day of his wake in Manila, I wanted to say “Goodbye, Joel”, but I could hardly say it and all I've said was the word “bye” that almost couldn't come out of my mouth. When I was about to leave with my companions who were also his close friends, I jokingly told them, “pinipigilan nya akong umalis” (“he was stopping me to leave now”). It was already morning when I arrived home because we still stopped by “Burger King” to eat. I went to the kitchen, opened the faucet to drink tap water when I saw a small moth fly to the sink from the tiled top, when it felt my presence. I was reminded of two symbols, the moth or butterfly symbolizing death or a dead person, and the presence of water which is where the lingering souls on earth prefer to stay. So I thought “this might be Joel saying thank you and goodbye”. With that in my mind, I decided to take a photo of the moth.

When I downloaded the photo to my laptop and checked the resolution by zooming it in, I was surprised to see a figure on the moth that looked like a man with thin but muscular frame that is waving. That was how Joel looked, and that could be his way of saying goodbye. It could be only me who could see that figure, but no matter how I try to convince myself that the figure was made up in my mind, I could still see the figure of a man that looked like Joel. And as I cropped the photo to create a closer view and made it brighter just now, I couldn't stop some tears to fall from my eyes.

As far as I'm concerned, my friend found a way to say “Goodbye”, not only to me but to all his friends, because he knew I will help him even after his death, by publishing this post with the photo, and that support is also my best way to say “Goodbye, my friend, rest in peace”.

Glimpses of my future

In July 2002, my daughter dreamed that I gave birth to a baby girl. A few years before that, I dreamed that I gave birth to a third child, a fair and chink-eyed baby boy with nice teeth.

Both dreams were far from reality because my whole uterus was removed in the year 2000. I can't remember which came first, my surgery or the dream about the chink-eyed baby, but nobody among us in the immediate family was chink-eyed.

What amused my daughter and me was a week after her dream, a baby was born inside our house. Who gave birth is another long story so you may just click this link for that story.

The baby had grown to be Lyca, our special needs child, and I just realized that the chink-eyed baby boy in my dream looked like her, almost like Lyca's photo in this post. The baby in my dream looked like a boy because of the short hair. Does that mean the arrival of that child to my family was part of God's plan several years ago? In my thoughts, I wished for a baby but that was already after my surgery. The dreams in our sleep can bring us to the future but more often than not, we only realize that when that time in the future has come. Why the dream about the child instead of other significant events that may happen? Perhaps because my life will be focused on this child. Life is truly a mystery and only God knows the answers to most of our questions.

I've read in a natural health news that the best alternative therapy for children with cerebral palsy like Lyca is acupuncture and music therapy. I'm glad that we're on the right track, has started doing non-invasive or needleless acupuncture on Lyca and has exposed her to the piano.

Maybe Lyca has a mission in life, or I have a mission in life and Lyca will have a big part in that mission.

A Dream Site: RepairPal

One of my big dreams is getting a BMW car as an award from Tiens as a leader and distributor of its high quality health products. But expensive cars can pose hard-to-solve problems because not many are knowledgeable about the ins and outs of such luxury cars. So the dream car becomes distorted because the owner will end up selling the car and replace it with a second choice that is easy to maintain in terms of parts and experts' availability.

There is a site that will finally make dreamers like me realize our dreams: a RepairPal for almost all kinds of cars, for example, a Honda Accord, and can help you find a car shop near you, like the San Francisco auto repair shop, for example. Repair costs can now be budgeted instead of remaining a mystery until the repair is completed, because of the provided feature for repair estimates in this website, even if it is just for one part, for example, a timing belt, and even provides information about a specific part and its replacement.

What's more, RepairPal also provides monitoring of the services done to each of your cars. I can now tell the world about my real dream car, and can also now confidently tell them how I can take care of my dream car. How about that?

"Brought to you by http://repairpal.com"

My Prodigy

I think I have a prodigy at home. She may be blind, has a hypertonic right hand and hypotonic left hand as a result of cerebral palsy, but I'm sure she can be a prodigy. Who knows, she might have a dream too, to be a good pianist like her adult sister, Holly.

Lyca will be eight years old this coming July 24. I used to believe I needed a job to be able to support a special needs child like Lyca, but after her caregiver left and I had more time to be with her, I now believe I should always be with her, discover what she can do or what she wants to do, and how she is able to communicate that want. So far, whenever she wants to play the piano, I am able to know that through her gestures and facial expressions.

I still give myself time to research for technologies that might improve her condition and I'm glad to learn that the 660 nanometer photon found on the mattress we have at home can help. I have to research more deeply about the ideal duration for her to be exposed to photon, when to stop, and when to resume exposure. Anyone who knows the answers?

Voice out your dreams!

Five years ago, when I was involuntarily retired just like my husband who was retired a year earlier than me, I found it necessary to study Interior Design to support my husband's possible venture in renovating offices or houses. However, my studies compromised an earlier promise to send my special child's caregiver to school, but promised that after I finish, which would be after two years, we'll push through with the plan for her to study.

Unfortunately, I had to stop my studies for financial reasons. The renovation business did not materialize, succeeding business ventures did not work, the coffee kiosk business remained but couldn't support any extra expenses and we had to pay cash for the balance of the lot where we've already paid 20% down payment. Until we can no longer sustain the coffee kiosk and I had to find a job but was not fortunate to find one. To continue my schooling as well as that of the child's caregiver was still in my thoughts but I had no choice but to defer those dreams. Until the caregiver sent her younger sister to school, I didn't notice that another two years had passed, because I thought that she decided to sacrifice herself since she and her sister couldn't go to school at the same time. She will need to shell out money for her own studies since it was not possible for her to depend totally on me for her studies, by the time I will have money to help her. During those times of financial crisis, I always dream in my sleep about a class I had to attend but either I forgot about my schedule or I will already be late for the class.

Early this month, the caregiver of my child left with a broken heart though she told me she'll just have a vacation. She never voiced out her dream to continue studying maybe because the previous years, she knew that I had to find a job and when I found one last year, I needed to wait to be regularized. For health reasons however, I had to resign meaning I won't be receiving a monthly income again. Maybe, if only she voiced out about her dream, I could have done something about it. She knew that I still continue dreaming for her because more than once in the recent past, I told her it would be good for her to study Physical Therapy and open a Wellness Center in their province someday. She never said anything about that idea, nor voiced out any other options she preferred.

I am very sad because she left telling others I did not fulfill any promise I made. It was never my intention not to fulfill those promises, in fact, a month before her scheduled vacation, I told her that one promise I made can soon be realized, and that was for us to go to Hongkong and visit the Disneyland there, together with my husband and sister-in-law, and that can surely push through as our Tiens' Indonesian upline's incentive to me, my husband and sister-in-law for the ranks we attained in Tiens.

Perhaps taking care of a special needs child takes a lot of patience and if that can be the compromise to voice out one's dreams to fulfill them, one can have second thoughts about voicing them out. But I admire my caregiver's patience and I believe there were other reasons that, or the totality of several reasons, kept her silent. Anyway, I'm still hoping and praying that she'll come back.

Now I'm sure I won't dream about a missed class in my sleep anymore, because it isn't really my dream, but somebody else's dream that is more important to be fulfilled.

My biggest dream remains, and that is for me and my special child to go to U.S.A. for a sponsored rehabilitation program for my child. Her caregiver was part of that dream, if her VISA will be approved, I told her.

Serious prayers are answered

It wasn't really too long when we started to pray seriously about a lot of wishes or needs. That was when we started praying with Lyca, our special needs child. From the expression of her face, we felt the seriousness of our prayers. One by one, those prayers were gradually answered.

Most of the dreams I published here were not included in our prayers. Maybe because they are big dreams. Maybe I should start praying seriously to make these dreams come true. Included in my big dreams was for Lyca to be able to walk. Some people close to Lyca pray for that and I can see that it is slowly being granted. I pray for that too, but not with Lyca. Maybe if we include that in our prayers with her, that will be answered faster like our other prayers. When Lyca prays, she's almost crying with her hands tightly clasped, as if asking for mercy.

Write about your dream!

I've been very busy these days, but I have to write about my dreams! Perhaps I'm not really too busy to write, I'm just overwhelmed with the consecutive events that's happening. I am overwhelmed because each event was not planned to follow the preceding one, but they looked planned step by step, of course by God, because who am I to know what's going to happen next? These were the events that happened, without me knowing that the next will happen.

1. I resigned from my regular work to be able to work full time with my network in Tiens. I was inspired by my trip in Jakarta last November, so on the first week of December I decided to resign, to take effect February 1.

2. Last January, Tianshi Phils. announced the Tiens Wellness Center Program, and the training started the last part of that month. Since I have resigned from work, I was able to attend all the trainings given. I wrote about that in a previous post here.

3. In my search for people interested to have their own Wellness Center, I remembered to approach a herbal supplements stockist, and she was interested. She said it was her dream to own a Wellness Center. The problem though is the start-up since she has used up her funds, so I volunteered to shoulder some initial stocks just to be able to introduce the products of Tiens in her center. We are taking it slow now, since she still has to serve her regular clients.

4. My partner and I decided to proceed slowly by focusing on health gadgets first. We planned to schedule demos but she knows just a little about the gadgets.

5. Surprisingly, a training on Tiens gadgets was scheduled by Tianshi Phils. on Monday, so I told my partner she has to attend that training.

6. Surprisingly also, my husband and I will be involved in an exclusive wellness forum this Friday. I need to display some products so I pulled out most Tiens products from my partner's center. I still lack some gadgets so I need to get them from the Head Office. Anyway, I can display them at my friend's center after the forum if they are not sold.

With all those events I enumerated, perhaps anybody can now predict what can happen next. Please make your predictions very positive. I have a very simple dream, to be able to help people maintain good health, by sharing everything I learned about wellness, but I also need to earn an income since I no longer have a regular job.

Have you read my earlier post about a dream, to be A "therapist"?

Full of opportunities

This month was indeed full of opportunities and I've grabbed every opportunity that came so most of my tasks now were not planned. I am now working on a trial period with a partner stockist to retail health products, but I've initially selected the ones I've used because I've proven their efficacy. I just hope and pray that everything will turn out well, and that I will soon be sharing the benefits of those products to customers through trainings we will be holding in my partner's center. She is taking it slow at the moment because like me, she is also still in a transition period, in her case that of adding my products to her usual product lines.

Maybe that is the best thing that should happen while I also have scheduled trainings about wellness. I've attended the trainings about stroke and myocardial infarction this month, and then on Friday, March 5, I will be attending the training on Diabetes. The training teaches about the Western Medicine side in the morning, and then in the afternoon is the TCM or Traditional Chinese Medicine side. Isn't that wonderful? If you're in the Philippines and is interested to join those kind of trainings for free, please say so in your comment. I can get in touch with you and introduce the company responsible for all the valuable learnings I have acquired for more than a year now, and that company is Tiens.

Transition Period

I'm now in a transition period of two realities. The transition of leaving a regular job to move to an area full of opportunities. I'm aware that grabbing the opportunities as they come will lead to fulfillment of a dream, I'm just not sure which one or which one will be first fulfilled.

It started with just a simple dream, to train people, then just see if some bigger dreams will follow. But opportunities to also be trained are coming fast. Maybe I will need the training because I will echo whatever I learn. But it is not the same subject of the training module I was planning to develop. It is much more challenging and more mission-oriented: to learn how to operate a wellness center.

Most of the time we don't know the exact reason why a more challenging opportunity is suddenly in front of us. We're usually vulnerable during a transition period, but perhaps it is the best time for God to lead us to the right path.